Sunday 18 October 2009

For some reason I'm not feeling very hungry anymore!?


Last month me and D celebrated 6 years together. 6 years! I can't quite believe it. How have we not driven each other mad yet?! It has been very important to me actually. I think of it as an achievement. Many people doubted we would make it even a fraction of that time, and so many relationships struggle in a now flirtatious and openly sexual society. Certainly I have always believed that there is a 2 year mark within relationships and that becomes decision making time. Should we continue, should we go our separate ways? I think we fought our way through this time for our daughter but became closer as a result, so it was worth it. 6 years therefore, to me, is something to be proud of! I said to D 'shall we try for another 6?' and he said 'Is that all?', heartily laughing.


We went into Newcastle for the night (Ali conveniently sleeping over with her Gran!), had a lovely Indian meal and went to see a film. It was really great to have some quality time together and it certainly feels like we only get out together for this one time a year! While waiting to see the film we had a few drinks in a bar which is also a club. D looked quite uncomfortable in this situation, it made me giggle for he certainly wasn't the oldest there, he is just so traditional it is quite amusing! We had a fabulous time and when home ate chocolates in bed! Luxury!


I have spent the morning trying to establish whether my mother is stranded in Cockermouth as the flood rages, but strangely it has not hit my grandmothers house. A big relief all round as it was hit very badly around the time Carlisle flooded. It seems from the news that the main street took it bad - but luckily, in many ways, my grandmother remains in hospital following her operation, preventing her from panicking about the rising river level. Mother has taken precautions and moved as much as possible upstairs, just in case, as the rain continues - will it ever stop!??


And of course, who knew that Cheryl Cole could actually sing?? Now don't get me wrong, I am a fan of hers, especially as she is from my neck of the woods; but Thursday night singing at the concert for Children in Need she actually took my breath away. She did look nervous, but that song is gorgeous and she sang it so well with Snow Patrol. Will this girl ever stop going up in our estimations? Of course now you have raised the bar Cheryl, you will have to keep it there! We love you though. My favourite as always was Annie Lennox. I am such a fan and she was brilliant as usual. I could here her at the end of the concert singing 'Hey Jude' with Sir Paul, but the cameras would not zoom in on her. Such passion in her voice. Amazing!


I have discovered a Disney site online that allows you to design your own fairy from the Tinkerbell film. We had a bash at it last night and Ali just loves it. Heck, I must confess I have even had a go myself - how sad. I don't suppose the Disney magic ever leaves you when you're female! Every woman dreams of being a princess and being rescued by their handsome prince, never mind the girls. Although I was brought up to question why the female characters weren't stronger, and that it should be a heroine rather than a hero. Consequences of a female lead single parent household I reckon!


D is away for a few days to go to a funeral in Scotland. The house is strange without him. I feel a little lost. I don't like it at all. He hardly says anything when he is here, but at least he is here in body. Very strange. We haven't been apart for long since I was at university in Leeds, which would be April 2005. Four years. Maybe we should be apart more often - it reminds you what you have!


Last night I caught a fraction of the 'I'm a celebrity, get me out of here' programme on TV as I was going to bed. That woman who cleans the houses of disgusting people - Kim, she was eating all the really gross foods during one of the trials. I didn't know whether to laugh or wretch myself. What compelling viewing though. I had to keep watching. From fish eyes to kangaroo anus and testicles, oh my goodness; it sends a shiver down my spine just thinking about it. How do they do it?? I couldn't eat any of it if you paid me. Sunday dinner for us today! Not a testicle in sight! Only chicken.